I Know

There are things I do that mask over the hands of time and bring happiness to the present.
I do what I do.
Talent, talent... talents and with both hands so many I did and still do.
They ice over good and bad... what I haven't and what I've had.
I'm vulnerable... an easy target, "... this is you."
True until death
My passions see me through.

The Curse of the Caul

All through my life I have been confronted with situations and peoples choices to either do good by me or not. I never understood why after my involvement, which could have gone one way or the other... all who did good by me... met with good and all who chose to do bad... got bad.
I can not put it into simpler terms.

I have been like a "crossroad" for everyone who has had personal contact with me. I want to express what all this means to people I meet but... it's a bit much for most to grasp.
My code of life for all who know me. "You do good, You get good." There's only one thing I leave out ... doing it "by ME."

I've witnessed so many who came to that crossroad and encounter me and their destiny. I've been told by people who love me that I'm such an, "easy target".
Understanding... now... who and what I am has convinced me of how destiny effects life... and death.

We do what we do.

What is "Why"

Why... ?

There's no answer.
My friends have them all.
I listen to all of them...
each and every one.
I can ask myself again,
and again...
but my sons are still not here.

What did I do?
They stay away and with her.
What can I do but...
what I do?
Does anyone miss me?
Every day, all their lives,
I was there even when she...
chose to be away.

All the answers,
still the same.
"... have no guilt, you're not to blame."
Still the same. I ask why
and tuck myself in.
To my boys... good bye.