Think of all the times when you could be taking your life over stupid shit. You might be in your bed at night praying to God and simply informing Him that if would be perfectly fine if you didn't wake up the next morning. I remember doing just that and actually felt relieved and comfortable after a few minutes of prayer and explaining the details of my request.
My head would rest softly on my pillow. The sorrow of how I had imprisoned myself in a place I couldn't get control of drifted peacefully from my mind and sleep would begin to overtake me.
I'd fall asleep feeling secure that my life was once again in the hands of God.
When the morning would come and I was awake again all thoughts of death were gone and I'd admit to myself that God didn't want any part of my misery.
After so many unsuccessful nights of wishing I was dead I eventually began doing things that started to change my life and with some effort I realized God had a much better plan for me.
It's really not that difficult to get on track and steer clear of suicide by substituting it with success.
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I also think of what it would be like if I couldn't be there for my children if they were living in that world when you don't want to live .
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